A Feeling Confirmed

I've felt for a while that a friend of mine was mad at me for some reason.  While we were never close, we were very friendly and if we had the chance, would chat about this and that.

However, in the recent past, I had chosen not to use her services.  Not that there was anything wrong or I thought they wouldn't be appropriate, it happened that there was someone else involved in the decision making and I was respectful of that "someone's" wishes.  My friend grew very distant after this and when I attempted to engage her services at a later time, she was unavailable.  (Which is very odd for reasons I don't need to get into here, just suffice it to say the excuse raised my eyebrow.)

I hated to think that my friend had chosen to distance herself over a business transaction and convinced myself that I was just being paranoid.

Today I received confirmation that this person is mad at me.  So mad that she walked right past me in a local store and didn't even acknowledge me.  There was no excuse that she didn't see me, she walked right past me (had to go around me a bit actually, as I was being a bit of an aisle hog).  I was talking to my hubby on the phone, but was just turning around when I saw her head towards and right by me.

This makes me sad.  This person is a sister-in-Christ.  I don't know what I've done wrong, other than this business issue; but not choosing her services was not wrong.  And I actually apologized for not choosing my friend, so I'm not sure what more I could have done.

I am slowly learning that I cannot control other people and the judgments they make about me.  What I can do is control my own behavior and how I react.

I choose to love and forgive and hand it over to God to repair.

So my dear friend, I don't know what I've done to upset you.  But know that I love you and am here whenever you wish to talk to me about it.

In the meantime, I need to move on and not let others rule my day or my life.

Have a blessed day everyone and give God the problems in your life; He is more than capable of taking care of them.